James McCray and Thomas Lane of the Anointed Ex-Offenders (AEO) came to El Salvador this past month together with Pastor Jack Weber for a rigorous week of ministry with their special gifts of song, dance, beat-box and testimony. They delighted kids in the Christ For the City International soccer schools, and people in a poor community near the railroad tracks.
The team helped to inaugurate the new youth center in Pedregal, a small sweatshop town located 45 minutes southeast of San Salvador. Prior to the event, they met with 14 members of the local gang, to share their testimonies and enjoy a meal together, arranged by the pastor of the local church. The gang members opened up and even smiled to see Thomas’ dancing and beat-box routine as James sang, “Lord, you’ve been so faithful!” Pastor Jack spoke to the crowd about the importance of ministering to youth. The inauguration drew some 100-120 people to the town square, in front of the youth center.
The AEO gave an open-air concert which drew more than 600 people to a park in a gang-controlled area. The event featured a local break dance group, as well as a Christian beat-box artist. The crowd cheered as they watched the AEO members dance, sing, and beat-box. Local churches were invited and prepared to pray with attendees. There were 12-15 people who expressed a desire to follow Christ.
The group also was able to do prison ministry at 3 different facilities in the San Salvador area: the Juvenile Detention Center, the Women’s Prison and the Mariona Men’s prison. In each place we met with the “body of Christ within the walls,”believers who decided to follow Christ after being incarcerated. A group of 14 teen boys in the Juvenile Detention Center have formed a church they call “City of Refuge.” They were very pleased by the visit. “Not many come to see us, “they said.
In addition, the team sang and preached at 3 churches, the Central Cathedral and a Christian school. It was a very rewarding time, and the team went home weary, but pleased to be a part of God’s work in El Salvador!
This day encourages me to reflect on the truths found in the Bible about resurrection and life after death. After Bryan died, I had so many questions and few answers, but one thing I have always been assured of is that Bryan knew where he was going. I know this because of a single word he wrote in the margins of his bible. Bryan was not one to write or even highlight in his Bible, so this word stood out like a light in the darkness, a bold statement of what he believed and what I also am convinced of: that those who look to Jesus Christ as Lord and King will, after leaving this world, experience His glory with all those who believe, whether they have come to this understanding early in life, or have finally accepted Christ’s authority after long years of personal struggle and alienation from God.
Sometime after Bryan died, as I was working through deep grief over his going away, I came across this word he had written in his Bible. He wrote it next to the final phrase of John 6:40, “For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in Him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day.” Next to this, Bryan wrote the word, “resurrection.”
Finding this in his Bible brought me great comfort and served as an acknowledgement to me that Bryan knew that his death from this world would mean entrance into a new life in the presence of God. His illness overcame his ability to manage in this world, so he went on to the next.
N.T. Wright, the well-known British theologian and scholar, studies the theology of resurrection in his book, Surprised by Hope. He expounds on the early Jewish and Christian ideas about resurrection, as well as contemporary ones, and examines them from a Biblical point of view. He debunks the many erroneous concepts within the Christian and wider world about death, resurrection and heaven.
Wright demonstrates that the Christian hope after death is not one of a disembodied spirit which resides in a utopian place somewhere “out there,” but rather is one of a bodily resurrection and eventual renewal and restoration of the earth. Just as Christ was resurrected as the “firstborn” of a new covenant, God will also provide bodily resurrection for those who accept his free gift of redemption, and “the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God (Romans 8:21).”
Dr. Wright explains, “My proposition is that the traditional picture of people going to either heaven or hell as a one-stage post-mortem journey (with or without the option of some kind of purgatory or continuing journey as an intermediate stage) represents a serious distortion and diminution of the Christian hope. Bodily resurrection is not just one odd bit of that hope. It is the element that gives shape and meaning to the rest of the story we tell about God’s ultimate purposes. If we squeeze it to the margins, as many have done by implication, or indeed if we leave it out altogether, as some have done quite explicitly, we don’t just lose an extra feature, like buying a car that happens not to have electrically operated mirrors. We lose the central engine, which drives it and gives every other component its reason for working. Instead of talking vaguely about heaven and then trying to fit the language of resurrection into that, we should talk with Biblical precision about the resurrection and reorganize our language about heaven around that.”
Regarding heaven, he writes, “heaven is actually a reverent way of speaking about God so that the ´riches in heaven’ simply means ‘riches in God’s presence…’
The hope that Bryan had, and that I have, along with all those who believe in God’s promises as given in the Bible, is that we will be resurrected to live in God’s presence and enjoy a fully renewed creation.
I know that I will see my beloved Bryan again one day, and that gives me much comfort. But more than that, I know I have the promise of living together with him and the many other people whom I love, who have gone before me and will go after me, into God’s presence.
Recently I preached at an evening service of a Baptist church in the neighboring city of Soyapango on Luke 10:25-37. I retold the story in this passage in a modern Salvadoran context:
A Salvadoran businessman was going from San Salvador to Soyapango, and was at a bus stop when a gang attacked him, robbing him of everything, including his clothing. They beat him and left him for dead. By chance, a pastor passed along the same road on his way to an evangelization campaign, but when he saw what had happened he thought, “I had better stay away, or the gang will also go after me.” He moved away from the businessman, and went along his way.
Soon after, a theologian arrived at the bust stop, and when he saw the man he thought, “This man is likely a troublemaker. He probably had a fight with the gang members and so they assaulted him. This is his own fault, and so I better not interfere.” He got on the next bus and went on.
But a poor man with ripped jeans and no shoes soon came along. He was collecting plastic bottles and aluminum soda cans to make a few pennies by recycling what he could find. When he saw them beaten man, he felt compassion. He approached him and gave him clean water from the bottle he always carried in his backpack. He removed his shirt and tore it into strips to make bandages, which he used to stop the bleeding where the beaten man was wounded. Then, leaving his collection of recycling that had taken all day to collect, he lifted the man onto his shoulders, carried him to the closest clinic, and stayed until the doctors could attend to the man. Later, this poor man went to his makeshift tin shack and took the recycling money he had earned over the course of 2 days, which would have provided his food for the week. He went to the clinic and gave it to the doctor telling him, “This is to pay for my friend’s medicine and care, and if the bill goes higher than that, I will pay the balance when I return.”
Well, which of those three do you think became a neighbor of the man assaulted by gang members?
In telling the story of the Good Samaritan, Jesus challenged his audience by making the hero of the story a man rejected by society, considered dirty, and unpleasant. In the story God uses a man that society doesn’t value to save the beaten man. Is it possible that we all have a tendency to think like those who heard this story from Jesus? What biases do we have against people who are worthy in God’s eyes? Although we may feel that certain people are unlikeable, disgraceful or unworthy, Jesus loves everyone, even when they are still slaves to their own selfish sinful ways.
After telling the story, Jesus gives the mandate to “Go and do the same.”
How can we become like the Good Samaritan? I want to propose a couple of things we can do that sound simple, but in practice are very difficult:
1) Learn to see through “God’s eyes,” seeing every human being as a creature of God, worthy to receive salvation and so worthy of my respect.
2) With this attitude, love to others as Jesus commanded, paying special attention to people who are devalued by society, wounded, the people who need healing, food, a home, love.
We so easily fall into the sin of being too busy, prioritizing our own needs and interest, and so these opportunities pass us by, as they did the Levite and the priest. But Jesus calls us to be Samaritans; calls us to leave aside our own agenda when we see a person in need, and do what is within our reach to help. This is how we must love our neighbor.
The other day I discovered that Holy Spirit has a much better Roadside Assistance Plan than the AAA. Of course, that make’s total sense for those of us who turn to Him for other kinds of help. It’s just that I had never had a specific experience with the plan until now.
I had just dropped Bria and Dan off at the airport and was headed back to San Salvador, an uphill climb most of the way. We had just enjoyed 10 days together, traveling to the beach, the volcano, the water falls, etc. in my “new” 1991 Toyota Tercel.
Our trip to the San Salvador volcano was the first time I used The Plan. On our way down (a very steep and windy road) we were taking in scenes of the city from different angles. Just as we got to the bottom and were headed for a busy intersection, the brakes gave out.
Headed toward a double line of cars and buses waiting for the light to turn green, I shouted, “The brakes aren’t working!” and quickly veered into the oncoming traffic lane. The light was still red when we came up to the intersection, so I took a sharp right in front of the two lines of stopped traffic, and was able to pull over to the side of the road on the corner. Thank God there was a gas station right across the street, and with the use of the parking brake we were able to cross over and park the car, after we said a prayer of thanks for God’s protection from a major accident.
Unfortunately, the station had no mechanical assistance, but they directed us to a tire shop next door where we found a friendly mechanic willing to come over and take a look. “Lots of people who come down the volcano have this problem,” he said, “and they all tell me their brakes have given out, but they haven’t.” He went on to explain that because I was using the brakes to slow down the car (instead of the gears), the brake fluid had overheated and we lost compression. At least that is what I understood of his long and technical explanation. All we needed to do was to wait 30 minutes or so for the fluid to cool. Next to the gas station was a very nice Pizza Hut, so we went in for lunch and when we returned, the car was fine!
But back to what happened on my way back from the airport. I had about ¼ tank of gas and was moving along fine, until I started to hear an unsettling clacking sound in the motor. “This can’t be good,” I thought, and I checked the engine temperature gauge. It had quickly risen all the way to the top without my noticing. Yikes! I thought. The engine is overheated. So I pulled over and turned off the engine. After waiting about 10 minutes for it to cool, I tried starting it again. No go. The engine just would not start. OK, I thought, maybe I am out of gas. It could be that the gas gauge is inaccurate. What now? The best thing I have found to do in these sticky situations is to pray. So, I did. I thanked God for helping me to get Bria and Dan to the airport before this happened, and asked for help in figuring out what to do. Then I began to assess my situation.
I knew that there were no gas stations on my side of the divided highway, except for those further up the hill. I decided I would need to get to the gas station on the other side of the highway, back down the hills about 3 miles. The terrain between San Salvador and the airport is fairly steep, with shorter flat sections that I felt I could coast across with enough speed. So, I proceeded to back down the hill on the shoulder, looking for a crossover lane.
After about a mile (and an aching twisted neck) I found a crossover. I was able to cross the two lanes of my side of the highway during a traffic lull, coasting backwards to the inside shoulder. Unfortunately, the crossover was a bit steep and so I got stuck there on the edge of the road as I was trying to turn the car toward the downward bound highway. Hmm. What now? More prayer.
Thankfully, two nice guys stopped to help, and together they were able to push me into the downward lanes and I began to coast forward, waving a thankful goodbye as I picked up speed. I coasted down with ease, hitting only a few flat spots where I needed help to keep going. Thankfully, El Salvador is full of good-hearted men who are willing to push a vehicle in need.
I got to the gas station along the last flat spot by walking next to the car with the door open, pushing it with my left hand and steering with my right. Must have been a funny sight for the gas station attendant. He filled up the gas and checked my water. The engine was dry. But every time he tried to fill up the water, the engine spit it back like a water fountain, and we ended up dry again. This went on for about 45 minutes as we alternatively waited for the engine to cool and to be able to fill the water tank.
Now one thing you should know about Salvadoran men is that they love to study engines. Most of the cars down here have been rebuilt several times over as new cars are just not affordable for anyone but the rich class. In fact, my 1991 Toyota Tercel (which cost me $2,900) is in much better shape than many of the vehicles I have been in. Because they love a good engine problem, I soon had a committee of Salvadoran men peering into my motor to diagnose the problem. The Pepsi delivery guy was there, a guy who came over on his bike, a couple of guys who had stopped for gas, and several others who came over to join the excitement. As you can imagine, there were several different opinions about what was wrong with my car.
Here’s where the Holy Spirit stepped in. One of the guys was a mechanic who had worked in the business nearly 45 years, and who was willing to take the car over to his shop for repair. His assistant turned out to be a pastor of a small rural church in the area. We talked for a while, made arrangements for the repair, and then I headed back to San Salvador via public transport, e.g. squeezing into a minivan with 20 other people (yep, that’s right, 20) and riding back up to San Salvador feeling very much like a sardine.
Yesterday the two guys came by and we went off in search of repair parts, and to have the cylinder tested at a local machine shop. It took us most of the day, and there was lots of waiting, so I had time to talk with the pastor/mechanic’s assistant. His name is Eugenio. He grew up under very difficult circumstances, and was severely physically and emotionally abused by his mother. His father was an alcoholic. At age 14 he was considering joining the MS-13 gang, looking for a sense of belonging that he did not have at home. Before joining, he was invited to a church service by a friend where he met God.
“Tears were streaming down my face,” he said. “I heard a voice telling me to go up front when they called for people to accept Jesus. Then I heard another voice telling me not to go. But I listened to the first voice and went up.” Through this experience, Eugenio’s life changed completely. He turned away from the gang and began to work selling soda at the airport to save enough money to go back to school.
Even though he has only been able to finish 6th grade, Eugenio is thankful that he got far enough to be able to read. His knowledge of the Bible is impressive, as is his commitment to Christ. He works as a mechanic during the day, and leads worship and prayer services for his small congregation in the evenings. “God has blessed us with a piece of land we can worship on, and we hope He will bless us with a megaphone and keyboard to be able to better give our services,” he told me. “I wish I could study more about the Bible, but I don’t have any money for theology books or commentaries. I need to get some money together to pay for my kids’ school books this year, and I may have to go around begging and borrowing for that.” Thinking of the many library of books we have at church that often sit for months on the shelf, I offered to lend Eugenio some books to enhance his pastoral training.
Tomorrow I get my car back, and though I could see this whole event as a hassle, I choose to see God’s hand in bringing me safely through, and in putting me in touch with a pastor who has an amazing testimony and who could use some encouragement as he continues to learn more about God and His Word. Thank you, God, for all of your protection and help, and for making things happen the way you do!
It was around 10 p.m. a few nights ago when I finished my work on the computer and decided to take Rex for a stroll around the neighborhood before heading for bed. I usually walk him off-leash at night since the gateways to the community are closed, preventing him from running off and getting lost. He often chases after a cat, but as they are much quicker they easily get away, and he comes happily back, wagging his tail and panting with glee.
So, it was no surprise to me when he took off in hot pursuit of a cat, but this time he did not return. I had seen him go into a bush just ahead, so I waited for him to get tired of looking for the cat. I soon realized that he was farther away than I had thought, and so I went to find him. To my dismay, I saw that he had found a break in the fence separating our community from the hillside beyond. The rustle of his movements told me he had fallen down the embankment on the other side.
I knew I had to rescue him so I followed him through the opening in the barbed wire fence, leaving my over-shirt stuck on the barbs. It was dark, and though I had been outside the fence before, I had not been in this particular area. The hillside fell more steeply down here, with only a thin strip of flat ground near the fence. So down I went, much like Alice falling down the rabbit hole, and landed next to Rex on another thin ledge deep in weeds.
You can imagine me, stuck on a ledge on an embankment heavy with weeds, in the complete darkness, when all the neighborhood is quiet and most have gone to bed. I looked up. The top of the embankment was about 12 feet up. There was no way I could carry Rex up as he weighs over 90 pounds. I looked down. It was dark and hard to tell how far down to the next ledge or flat ground. The weeds on either side would not give way to my efforts to make a path to either side.
Rex was anxious and disoriented, so he resisted all my efforts to get him to try to climb up. In fact, he threw his full weight against me every time I tried. After about 20 minutes of thrashing weeds, trying in vain to get Rex to cooperate, and wondering if we were going to have to spend the night there, I decided to sit down and pray. I had already thrown up a few quick ones, but without any real thought or focus.
I sat down, took a moment to concentrate, and then said, “Lord, you know I can’t get myself out of this situation. There is no one around to help. You’re going to have to help me get out of here.”
After I had prayed, I decided that the only way to go was up. It was useless to try any other way. So, I began to dig at the side of the hill, just above my head, in case I could make a small stair there. No go. I looked again at the slope just to my right, and decided to focus my efforts there. To my great surprise, Rex stopped resisting me and so I was able to guide him that way, and even lift him part way up the slope. He seemed to understand what I wanted and immediately began to help by using his front paws to climb. Within a few minutes he was at the top!
Once that was accomplished, it was more or less easy for me to climb up, using the thick weeds as a sort of rope. Up top I took a deep breath and said, “Thank you, God!” You may call me crazy or a fanatic if you like, but I know that it was the prayer and God’s divine intervention that got us back up the hill.
Since then, I have been thinking about Jesus’ story of the good shepherd who goes out looking for the one lost sheep, and won’t give up until he finds it. The way I went after Rex. The way God never gives up on us. Yes, His love for us is that profound. You can believe it. I know I do.
Luis is a humble and quiet man. He speaks almost perfect English, and is very courteous. He comes to the church every day where he sits in the library working on his paperwork. He spends hours there, arranging and rearranging his papers, writing things down, and going over his work. But the truth is, Luis does not contribute to the overall productivity of the church. In fact, he does not work for the church at all. You see, Luis has Alzheimer’s disease.
One day he arrived at the church, well-dressed with his briefcase, ready for work. Pastor Miguel, with his great heart and sensitivity to the needs of others, found a place for him in the library, which Luis calls his “office.” The staff at the church greet him, lovingly, and allow him to do his “work” every day. On Monday mornings, Luis participates in the staff devotional, as if he were on staff. It makes him feel happy.
Saul is a man in his thirties, with the mind of a child. He was born retarded and cannot speak, but utters various sounds of joy or frustration, according to what he is feeling. He is also an integral part of our church community here at Emmanuel Baptist. He and his mother faithfully attend all of the Sunday and weekly services. Saul has learned to take up the offering, and gladly goes up to get an offering plate when his mother tells him it is time. The congregation lovingly refers to him as “Rey Saul,” (King Saul) and are kind and patient in directing him when he gets up to wander around during a service. His mother praises God for giving her the beautiful gift of her son, Saul. He is a much loved member of our community.
The stories of Luis and Rey Saul bring to my mind this passage in I Corinthians 12:12-14 which says, “Just as a body, though one, has many parts, but all its many parts form one body, so it is with Christ. For we were all baptized by one Spirit so as to form one body—whether Jews or Gentiles, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink. Even so the body is not made up of one part but of many.” Paul goes on to say in verse 18, “But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be” (emphasis added).
The world we live in values perfection, outward beauty, youth and intelligence. According to the world’s values, Luis and Rey Saul are a disappointment; a sign that things are not right; people to be tolerated but not honored.
Christ taught, “Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth” (Matthew 5:5). He scolded the disciples for trying to keep children from coming to him, saying, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it” (Mark 10:14-15).
This is a challenge for those of us who think of ourselves as competent, hard-working and faithful Christians who have a tendency to want to “earn” our way into God’s kingdom. We need to humble ourselves, leave behind self-sufficiency and become like children, totally depending on God, our perfect and loving father for all we need and do.
Blessed be those who are like Luis and Rey Saul, for they will inherit the earth!
I would hate to be a weatherman here in El Salvador since announcing it is going to rain this evening is like saying the sun is going to come up today. It is the rainy season here, which usually means the humidity builds up during the day and it rains just about every evening; sometimes lighter, sometimes heavier, and often with great flashes of lightening and loud rolling thunder. I love it. It is so predictable that the Salvadorans have a common saying, “Here comes the water!” There is a certain sense of assurance and certainty in that statement.
In the same way, as Christians we have assurance in God’s sovereignty in this world. Paul writes in Ephesians 1:18-21,
“I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.”
I believe that often people who do not understand God’s great redemptive plan for humanity mistake this sense of assurance for arrogance, or a cockiness in Christians that evokes a very negative reaction. As Christians, we need to be aware of this when sharing our convictions with others. Being aware means that we can share with humility and compassion, while firmly holding to the truth we have through God’s Word in the Bible. We need not retreat into a defensive stance, as can happen so easily in these days of political correctness. If we are true Christians, then we believe that Christ is who He claimed to be in his conversation with the Samaritan woman (Mark 4: 25-26):
“The woman said, ‘I know that Messiah’ (called Christ) ‘is coming. When he comes, he will explain everything to us.’ Then Jesus declared, ‘I, the one speaking to you—I am he.”
If we accept that Christ is the Messiah, and that the Bible is God’s Word, we must also accept His sovereignty as given to Him by God. He has “all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.”
In my own life I have had to come face to face with this reality and ask myself, “Do I really believe that Christ has authority over everything that happens in my life and the life of others?” Thankfully, God provided those assurances to us through the Bible, and the knowledge of the Holy Spirit. There is a sense of certainty and peace in accepting that promise, and knowing that no matter what happens, God is ultimately in charge.
I come from a long line of mission-minded people. My great-grandparents were among the first missionaries to India, where my grandparents and parents also served. I grew up on a mission compound playing with the local kids, eating curry and rice, and climbing tamarind trees (among many other delights).
Now I find myself back in El Salvador, doing what I can in ministry to encourage the building of God’s Kingdom. But the mission field has changed much since my childhood days. Missionaries no longer assume the roles they once did in the countries in which they serve. This new paradigm is very well analyzed by a Latin American theologian, C. René Padilla in a book entitled, “What is Integrated Mission,” a book we are studying in our Wednesday night Discipleship Group.
While Padilla appreciates the sacrifice and many achievements brought about by the earlier mission efforts, he admits there were weaknesses in the old paradigm. For example, in the past, missionaries were appointed by churches or mission boards to serve actively in sharing the Gospel in foreign lands, while the average church member´s main function was to support with funds and prayer. As a result, many church members did not feel actively a part of the mission effort. With this paradigm, missionaries usually originated from developed countries and served in underdeveloped countries. There was a division between those who served primarily to share the Gospel, and those who went to help with relief and development efforts.
The new paradigm that Padilla describes is one that is more global and integrated. He points out that the early church and the Gospels call every member of the Christian faith to be a missionary, whether or not they are called to live in another country. Mission is something that the church is called to fulfill at home as well as abroad. All Christians, not just those appointed by a church or organization, are to participate in some way in this mission effort.
Secondly, Padilla points out that missionaries are now coming from many underdeveloped countries to serve in developed countries. The mission field is no longer related to geographical borders, but rather is a definition related to Believers and Non-believers. He states, “the church which does not commit to the mission of testifying about Jesus Christ, thus crossing the border between faith and lack of faith, ceases to be a church and becomes, rather a religious club, simply a group of friends, or a social welfare agency.”
Padilla also emphasizes the need for mission to not only proclaim Jesus Christ as Lord, but to live out the Christian life in service to others, according to their needs. This means meeting not only spiritual needs but the physical, mental and emotional needs of those within one’s circle of influence (mission field). As Christians we cannot turn a blind eye to the needs of the poor and defenseless; neither should we withhold the good news of Christ’s salvation from those who do not yet know Him as Lord. Our life and mission must be integrated. Padilla states, “Every Christian is called to follow Christ and to commit to the mission of God in the world…integrated mission is God’s way of accomplishing in history, through the church with the power of the Holy Spirit, His plan for justice and love, revealed in Jesus Christ.”
Padilla is the President Emeritus of the Kairos Foundation in Buenos Aires, and Director of their publishing company. The Kairos’ mission is “to help the local church to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ at a personal, social, and community level not only by means of preaching, but also through all that the church is and all that the church does. In other words, the focus of Kairos is on integral mission.” At their retreat center, they hold workshops and theological courses with the intent to encourage Christian growth and discipleship among the participants. If you are interested in learning more, their English website address is: http://www.kairos.org.ar/english/
Rounding a corner in the church one day, I ran unexpectedly into a small dove who hurried away toward a sheltering bush. I suppose I was as surprised to see the dove as he was to see me. One of the church members told me that the dove has been here just over a month, having been injured and unable to fly. Like most buildings in El Salvador, the church has “indoor-outdoor” spaces which are open and may or may not be covered by roofing. Thus, the dove has plenty of free space to roam around in while his wing heals. No one really bothers the dove. They didn’t even mind when he came strutting into the sanctuary one morning looking as if he owned it. They just allow him to be there, and occasionally feed him little bits of tortilla or bread. It’s a good place for this injured dove to find healing.
How like the dove we all are! Injured and scarred by life, seeking healing and wholeness. What better place for that healing to take place than in a loving community of people who have dedicated their lives to faith in Christ, seeking always to exemplify the values of God’s kingdom here on earth.
This is not to say that the healing comes easy. To the contrary, healing from past hurts often takes great effort. Some hurts are too deep to heal, and yet we can learn to live with them. The apostle Paul had such a wound. In Paul’s 2nd letter to the Corinthians he speaks of a “thorn” in his side that he pleaded with God to remove. “Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:8)
J.R.R. Tolkien gave a similar metaphor: “How do you go on, when in your heart, you begin to understand, there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep…that have taken hold (Frodo in The Return of the King).”
I have often thought of Paul’s thorn, since Bryan died, and have identified keenly with these metaphors. For me, the pain of the thorn remains, but I am not overcome by it.
To the church in Rome, Paul wrote, “We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us.” (Romans 5:3-5)
Paul knew that by giving those wounds to God, he would find spiritual growth that is not found any other way. At times when I feel keenly the pain of the past, I find the best option is to give it up to God, and to let Him bring back the healing and hope that I need.